I feel like I blink and a week is gone. I imagine that’s what comes of keeping busy in anticipation. To think we have 12 days left in the month with 9 of those before I fly cross country with the youngest and; I can tell you right now that I only feel like I have met half of my to-do list. I’m not entirely complaining (just a little) as I can not wait to see Eli and Bella!
This month I have been making a conscious effort each morning to be awake by 7 am, alarm set and everything. (I know pick your jaw up, it’s real). I’ve had time for a cup of coffee before waking the littlest. Time enough to pull out of the mommy fog and actually make a point through the day to eat a breakfast, lunch, and dinner rather than forgetting to eat until dinner. I’ve set three work tasks for myself each day and regularly been trying to reach outside my comfort zone. Let me tell you that one in particular has been extremely difficult.
There’s nothing like knowing what to do, how to do it so well you coach another on it and watch them succeed, but when you try to put it into practice some how your brain gets in the way, your stomach feels physically ill, and by the time it’s all over you could just fall over from exhaustion even though it’s only 11am.
In hindsight, I have come to the acceptance that while I would love to be super mom, I just can’t. Or maybe I am but I am realizing I have limits while I try to push pass comfort barriers. In any case, to put it plainly, I make a point to not over stretch myself. For instance, this month I have stepped back from one business completely so I can pour that energy into the one that calls my passion as well as more time with my family. I have also made myself step away from the constant chasing work and Facebook or other social media what have you once it’s reached a certain hour in the evening, and certain times through the day.
When your mind is in a constant gogogo mode there’s lots of other things you miss out on and eventually you burn out. I’m probably preaching to the choir on that point. But for me it’s been a big reality check. I’ve made time for prayer, family, housework, business work, and the occasional play time. The schedule isn’t perfect yet, always a work in progress. Now the days when I hit the cues and things fall in line just a little bit better than the day before, are a breath of fresh air. I’m really enjoying our routine, our family dinners at the table, the growing and getting to know my team, and having my house, mostly, in order for the first time in what feels like forever.
This has been my focus for the month of May. Not bad, but has had its own headaches and stresses. In keeping with the goal of Living With Intention, I can’t help but feel like things are starting to fall into place. Before I start sounding like a broken record. I know there will be peeks and valleys all through life. I’m sure there will be days that feel like it’s all fallen apart. In this moment, feels like the quiet anticipation just before something amazing like the roller coaster inching nearer to to top of the first big thrill. I’m looking forward to the ride.
All my love,
Matthew 6:33-34 ~ “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”